Wednesday, September 26, 2007
ive faced thru a lot in my teenage years.. some of u barely noe anithing of it.. but it doesnt matter.. theres a lot of scars n emotional baggage in my heart.. i dunno how to let them go.. i cant let them go..
i juz wan constant.. constant pple in my life.. i dun wan pple who come n go.. i dun wan to care n suddenly b backstabbed.. its tiring to deal wif pple who calls themselves a fren but they juz dont trust u.. im tired of others forming an impression of me juz by listening to stories tat they don noe the truth abt.. they dont even noe me.. the saddest part, is when the frens tat u tink noes u well enof, juz doesnt noe u at all.. n its freaking disappointing..
i nd to let dis out.. im not gonna lie, but im sad tat it happened.. im sad tat my relationship wif my old frens r strained bcos of u.. yes im goofy n all wacky but wen i confront u about serious matters, i reli mean it.. wne i saed im not hapie abt ur actions, i tok to u cos i wan explanations.. n u juz din listen or remember.. n u put me in the spot tat i backstabbed u? god.. god i was the one being ur fren the whole time wen others r iiritated wif u.. n it all ends up on me.. suddenly im the bad perrson.. im disappointed tat u had to stoop tat low.. tat u cant even confront me to check on whether i rlei did backstabbed u.. n there u go telling others tat im the rotten egg..
n the others.. dont they noe me at all? they dont.. they juz dont.. i reli don understand y dis happen to me.. i cared.. did i care too much? y m i bothered wif pple hu dont bother? caring is definitely easier than to uncare dis care..
i don care wads ur explanantion now.. i juz wanna let it out.. for those hu did go thru dis wif me.. u noe wad happen.. they r the true frens.. they noe me enof not to juz rely on stupid stories..
ill pray tat i will let dis frustration go.. lyk wad i saed b4, i forgif but im learning to forget.. im learning.. n hoefully wen i do.. if i ever see u on the streets, im able to at least gif a polite smile to u.. for the fact tat u were once an old fren..
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